Bob’s Ibogaine Experience: A Journey of Awakening & Healing

Jemie: Bob, since your Ibogaine experience, it sounds like a lot has been unfolding for you. Can you describe what it’s been like?

Bob: Everything feels like it’s moving so fast. It’s almost like time is slipping away. I was reflecting on my upcoming session, and suddenly, it was here. It made me realize how fleeting everything is—thoughts, moments, memories. I wish I had journaled more because so much has been happening—downloads, insights, signs from God.

Jemie: Can you share an example of what you mean by “signs from God”?

Bob: Oh, definitely. One that really stood out to me—I was driving to work, just thinking, and then I saw a license plate with “4444.” I thought, huh, interesting. Then, not long after, another car passed me with the same number—quadruple fours again.

At that moment, I knew it was God speaking to me, reassuring me that I’m on the right path. And I feel that—I know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. But at the same time, it’s like God is saying, the ball is in your court now. I’ve been preparing for this moment, even when I didn’t realize it. Even in the darkest moments of my addiction, He was there, waiting.

Now, it’s like boom, boom, boom—one download after another. It’s incredible.

Jemie: That’s so powerful. So, let’s go back to your Ibogaine experience itself. What did you feel during the journey?

Bob: I felt like I was dying. And maybe in a way, I was—dying to my old self.

I realized that to truly be with God, to fully receive what He wanted to show me, I had to detach from everything here. That was terrifying. Part of me didn’t want to let go. But I had to. And when I did… it was like the veil lifted.

Jemie: That’s intense. Did that feeling connect to anything in your life before the experience?

Bob: Yes. Actually, it reminded me of something I went through when my grandma was in hospice. She didn’t want to be touched. She was detaching, preparing for her transition. I understood at the time, but now I really understand.

It’s like she had to disassociate from this world to step into the next. And that’s what I went through in Ibogaine. I had to let go of all attachments, everything I thought I knew, to truly connect with what was beyond.

Jemie: It sounds like this experience completely changed how you see life and death.

Bob: 100 percent. I’ve been thinking a lot about cycles—of life, of reincarnation, of spiritual lessons. Some people, when they pass, go straight up. But others, I think, have to find their way.

I was talking to my mom about this—how some souls get lost, how people can stay trapped in cycles. And I believe a lot of people keep reincarnating because they haven’t learned the lessons they need to. But we can break free. We have the power to remember where we came from and choose a different path.

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Jemie: And you feel like Ibogaine gave you clarity on that?

Bob: Absolutely. It wasn’t just about seeing it—it was about feeling it, knowing it. It’s hard to explain, but it’s like I was being shown the deeper structure of reality.

Jemie: So how has that changed the way you live your life now?

Bob: It’s made me so much more intentional.

For one, I want to do God’s work. I want to be part of something bigger—helping others reconnect, find their own truths, and overcome their fears. After Ibogaine, I realized—we need to get this medicine to everyone who’s ready for it. It’s not something you can fully understand until you experience it.

But I also recognize that psychedelics aren’t the only way to reach this understanding.

Jemie: What do you mean by that?

Bob: My brother, for example — he gets it. He listens to me talk, and he just… understands. He even asked, Do you think my heart could handle it? And honestly, I don’t know. Maybe he doesn’t need it. Some people do, some don’t.

But for those who do need it, I feel called to help them get there.

Jemie: That makes sense. Let’s talk about the process of integrating everything you’ve learned. Have you noticed any shifts in your daily habits?

Bob: Oh, for sure. I’ve been thinking a lot about what you said about my body as a holy temple. Why am I still smoking cigarettes? Why am I putting things into my body that don’t serve me?

It’s like my body is already working to cleanse itself, and if I keep putting toxins in, I’m just making the job harder. I don’t want to be in survival mode. I want to thrive.

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Jemie: That’s a really strong statement. So, what are you doing now to keep yourself moving forward?

Bob: Journaling more, practicing breathwork, being mindful of what I put in my body. I also want to be more intentional with my space — cleansing it, keeping it sacred.

And I’m watching my habits closely. If I notice I’m smoking more instead of less, I have to stop and ask myself why? Am I choosing this, or is something choosing it for me?

Jemie: That level of self-awareness is really powerful. As you move forward, what are you most excited about?

Bob: Honestly? Just seeing what’s next. I know there’s so much more to come. And I want to be ready for it.

Jemie: It sounds like you’re stepping into this next phase of your journey with open eyes and an open heart.

Bob: That’s exactly it. I don’t have all the answers yet, but I know I’m moving in the right direction. And that’s enough.